Why do we do it?
Why do we choose to put ourselves in a place of vulnerability? A place of criticism?
It's like art. Some will love it, and some will not.
Perhaps like you, I wouldn't have much to say if I didn't have joy and struggles in my life. That being said, "it's been a good life all in all". (John Denver)
Life is filled with choices. Some are more difficult than others. For me, I recently made some life-changing decisions that have allowed me to enter a new direction in my life that I consider a deliberate escape. Not a deliberate escape from reality, but a new direction and focus for my life.